vol #36: 032c, beta-blockers & slogan tees
sent from jess' iphone with love
jess:
Hi! I’m Jess. I don’t know how to intro myself. I try to write and I don’t try to play music (I have been stuck for over a year).
I work with Jossy, she’s my saviour and mentor and the queen of insights. I can only aspire to be her.
I’m excited to write this because I love talking about myself and the things I like. I write this as I smoke a cigarette in bed because I’m pathetic. Watch me overshare with excitement. It’s kinda like letting me go loose on a public IG but without a space limit.
a true taste maker and hottie with a heart of gold
this is the online bit
I’m not a gamer but I wish I was. When I was a kid I could pick up anything and be great at it. I played four instruments, basically ran marathons, and painted award-winning paintings (I promise I’m humble IRL). But video games I could Not. Fucking. Nail. This made me mad because I have two younger brothers who were really good at like, all of it.
Anyway, there’s this trending aesthetic on TikTok called #pinkcore where they cut and paste gaming clips with esoteric memes and hyper-pop music. I’m obsessed with it. So kitsch, so cute. Better than #corecore imo (but look that up anyway too).
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Incorrect maps on IG
The Explore page on Insta is a wild, wild world. I’ve peeped at other people’s pages and there’s usually some sort of overall theme going on - Lana Del Ray-core, cute pics of bunnies, military porn etc. etc. 30% of mine atm are these maps with statistics around the most random topics. They are usually obviously wrong or at least unbelievable. I love them.
Average dick size by country? Which food combination is most common (bread and butter etc)? All the cities “21 year old admin” has visited per EU country? They’ve got it all. There’s never a source and they are usually Euro-centric but hey, data is what you make it. Right?
IG create stories
For me the most essential part of Instagram is the ‘Create’ stories you can make. So pure. I don’t use Twitter so it’s a good alt way to word-dump things no one else cares about.
Mine were particularly unhinged during the COVID lockdown(s) but I like to think they were still of value. I mean, my internet friends liked them. I once chronicled the time I got an antibiotic capsule lodged in my throat and when the shell melted I coughed the powder out and the taste and smell was so bad I projectile vomited out my nose. I was living in a shared warehouse in London and didn’t quite make it to the toilet so I had to do a walk of shame to the kitchen and clean my (stinky) insides off the hallway floor. All vomiting stories are Create worthy.
They have to be written in Arial. That’s a requirement. It’s the default font and we have to be forever true to it.
tea
this is the irl bit
032c Magazine
In 2020 for a while living in Bristol I was collecting archival Dazed magazines off eBay (mainly mid-2000’s) because I had a manic episode and thought I’d penned the indie sleaze renaissance before anyone else did. I covered my living room floor in pics of The Klanxons, Cat Marnell etc.
Despite this fixation, my favourite mags were still 032c Magazine out of Berlin. Joerg (the editor-in-chief) is just the coolest person and the mix of subcultural discourse and over-intellectualisation of fashion is just chef’s kiss. Go get one, read it, then cut it up and blu-tac the sexiest pages on your wall.
Beta-blockers
I love pills. Beta-blockers have changed everything for me. I’m bipolar so I take a lot of pills (true, but also an Annie Hamilton quote) and they all work really well. Although, my mood stabilisers give me embarrassing tremors. I look permanently nervous and it’s really hard to do shots.
I honestly complained to my psych SO much about this but she said I’d have to live with it. Fast forward 6 months and my GP shrugs and says “I’ll sort you out” and hands me a script for Propranolol. No more tremors. They also slow down your heart rate so no more physical anxiety. LOVE!
Slogan tees
I don’t really have a signature style, I’m a bit slapdash. But the one thing I think could be considered “my thing” is slogan tees (and hats and hoodies). “HOT MODEL SEX”, “Bikers are a crazy bunch, what most call pussy they call lunch.”, “UNCOOL”, “I’m a horrible person and I know it”, “I Love Spreading Misinformation On The Internet”. They are the pinnacle of fashion and they will never bore me. My friend has one that says “VODKA SODA”. Shit never gets old.
hubby material
ily xxxx